Going on a date

I had a doctor's appointment and I ended up meeting a really nice guy who is an Intern to be a docotor and he ended up asking me out so I said yes, and then I had a very nice date with him.  He knows all about me and he didn't seem to care about anything.  An added bonus is that he didn't try to kiss me, but he did ask me out again.  I am going out with him again tomorrow.  The entire time I was out with him I could see myself with J for a really long time.  We talked about what felt ike everything. We taked about God, politics, past realtionships and we even talked about marriage.  While we talked about marriage because I don't believe in divorce unless there is abuse and he felt the same way. He is going to become a resident at the end of this month that is if he passes his boards which is a test that interns have to take to prove that they have learned enough to become residents. He even seem impressed that I knew this, but as we spoke of marriage I do what I do with all men that I begin to date, I take their last name and I try my name out with theirs to see how i like the way it sounds and I did like the way it sounds. I give him a bonus for knowing about everything that has went on in my life and not running away. J told me that he was in trouble because he didn't think he could say no to me because I'm too cute to ever be denied anythign then he told me how I must be spoiled by my family which I then laughed at and then told him it was a great line.  It sounds cheesy everything he said to me, but coming from J it wasn't chessy I don't know if it is the sound of his voice or just him in general.  Even though he didn't try and kiss me I did kiss him on the cheek and give him a hug which he seemed to like and as he was walking away he tripped a little and i know it sounds a little dumb, but  always know that a guy really likes me when he gets flustered or trips because he can't stop staring at me.    J and I came across the topic of kids and he wasn't pushy or overbearing in any way, but he did listen and he didn't pity me like msot people do, but he was just a good listener and though J asked a few questions he didn't pry.  I am going to go out with him again and I am trying to not get my hopes up.  i do have to be a little cautious because I always wonder about doctors and if it's a line they use in order to get women.  I don't really care what he does for a living not to mention that interns don't make a lot of money so I don't care about money because honestly I am not one for status's or money.  I have never cared abotu that kind of stuff and everyone who knows me knows that to be true. I have dated mostly military guys, a roofer, a guy who worked as a delivery guy for coca cola, and a cop.  Okay, so one of those guys was both a delievery guy for coca cola and then later on towrds the end of our relationship became a cop, but I don't care about jobs but I do look at what a guy does for a living as to what type of perosnality he has.  From what I can tell J is smart, not very controlling though he knows what he wants, and he makes me laugh.   So, we are going out again tomorrow and we even talked about going to a show in Sepetember, but i told him it was a little to soon to talk about that  It's wierd just as I figure that I shouldn't be dating at all I meet a really nice guy.   I am the type of girl who can tell if she can love a guy right off the bat.   With R I knew right away if I could ever love him.  I wasn't in love with him, but I did lie to him when I said I never would.  I think I could have loved R if things could have been mostly good between us.  I didn't love R, but I do think I could have if he had treated me better and I did have feelings for him.  I don't know how long it would have taken me to fall love with R and maybe it never would have happened, but I think I could have just because when he wasn't me he really was a good guy.  No, R never made contact with me and I do know why and it had nothing to do with our fight.  Frankly I honestly think R was scared. Maybe he was mad, but he had pleanty of time to cool off and to handle things better, but he chose not to.  Maybe it had to do with the fact that I took sex off the table and maybe it had to do with him hooking up with someone knew, but i think mostly he didn't want to out of fear and anger, but I know that I did the right thing and I acted like a grownup and he made his choice so I can tell myself not to worry, but honestly I will probably keep worrying.   Meeting J kind of came at the wrong time because I do still plan to move.  Unless J and I fall in love and decide to get married lol which I think considering we only had a first date which okay lasted twelve hours yes, we had that much fun, but even with a long and great first date I don't think love and marriage is going to happen so fast.  He and I also talk on the phone late at night around eleven.   I have only known J for two days and it's wierd, but I do feel like I have known him a while, but I have a lot of people say like they feel they have known me a while and I have a few people who I have known for years that don't know me at all like my friend L AKA Sanchez.  I have known Sanchez for about seven years and we barely know each other.  Things I know about R who I only knew for five months I don't know about Sanchez and he certainly doesn't know it about me.   R asked me a few things about Sanchez and I kinda of lied mainly because I don't liek admitting it to myself let alone to another person lol.  I didn't lie about anything that is R's business or anything big I just didn't tell him everythign. I had mentioned the topic a few times to him and tried to tell him , but he cut me off because he didn't care and I didn't see the point in telling him now that we are broken up since he never wanted to hear it when we were together.  Well, I have to get up early because yes, I am going out around ten am early I know, but it's the only time free.   Oh, other thigns going on in my life.  I get to find out if the baby is a boy or girl in about a month and a half.   Everyone is hoping for a girl, but we will see. If it is a girl I am going to go shopping and everyone knows the baby is going to be spoiled by everyone.  The first girl grandbaby in the family. Elisabeth will be the name if it's a girl and frankly I can't wait to find out.   I think that is the only thing I am looking forward to right now, but I have a few other things to look forward to as well. I am tired because when I got home I cooked dinner for my family.  I made brown rice, chicken, broccli and cheese I also made some garlic shrimp scampi which I did not eat and everyone seemed to love it.   I know the shrip and white rice is a meal all on it's own, but my mom has a difficult time eating chicken as sometimes it gets stuck and makes her sick so i made another dish as well. I also made corn and finished everything off with applesauce lol.   I made banana nut bread for dessert.   I have been cooking almost every night for the family and I always forget how much I really do love to cook and bake.   I rarely have time to cook and bake and since right now I am on vacation it's nice to get to do the things I have missed out on.   Well, that is what went on in my life the past two days since I haven't written since Friday evening.  My doctor appt was on Saturday morning the only time they could get me in and since I missed my last appointment because I had to go to the ER they were able to fit me in on a weekend because my doctor goes in some saturday for about three hours YEAH ME anyway I forgot to mention what I did on my date.   I went hiking early this morning and then by afternoon got completely poured on so went to lunch soaking wet followed by a movie.  We saw the Zookeeper which was a cute movie.  I like the gorllia Bernie.  If you haven't seen it I do reccomend it because I now want a Gorrlia lol especially if I can take him t oApplebees lol.    Anyway after the movie we then walked around the mall a bit followed by catching an early light  dinner and talking some more.   All in all the past two days have been really cam and pleasent.  Well, now I going to go lay down because it had been a long day and I need my beauty rest.   Sweet dreams readers and I shall catch you up tomorrow.